a hundred tiny daydreams about you

Hey hot mess

tealeafbug:

I’m giving this a second chance.

Formerly kpope11ie, I’m going to continue what I did there. Except this time I’m going full on the blog part, so I’m not only sharing posts I like and fanarts I drew – now I’m using this platform to add my other drawings, maybe designs and graphics, as well as my snapshots and personal blog posts. So mainly I’m merging my other died-out tumblrs and my old Wordpress into here too, because I don’t have the capacity to do all of them, but I miss each and every one of them. I only use Instagram now and it-is-not-enough, that’s just not it.

Let’s see how this goes.

I’m doing this because I miss Tumblr. Soon I would be having my 6th anniversary here except that I don’t because I let my other account die and eventually couldn’t log in anymore.
Tumblr used to be a beginning of a lot of things for me and I loved it. It’s one of those top10 things you think back to with heavy nostalgia. You know the kind that let’s you sink in it, heavy, warm. The others are “playing piano”, “2006″, “childhood winters”, “Friday, 13 Sept, 2013″, “Tumblr”, maybe “that guy on the Budapest subway, on a rainy morning in 2014, I don’t even know his name″ too. So it’s a pretty big thing. Tumblr used to be a big source of inspiration to me, I followed over a 1000 amazing blogs, a met a lot of amazing girls here.

Well, so here I am giving it a second try. Cause really why the hell not.

Follow me on tealeafbug, I already shared my newest fanart there too. :)

(I still didn’t log out from this blog on my phone, same how I could share the announcement. But I’m starting new there.)

Announcement

So here is something I should have done months ago, I was kind of hoping the problem will magically solve itself. Well, that didn’t happen so here it is: I actually can’t access this account - the only reason why I’m able to write this is because I didn’t log out from my phone (like for months, years actually).
I tried many ways, but the Tumblr team messed up my account and then refused to solve the situation, not being helpful at all. I’m 100% blaming them for this, yes, you, Tumblr Team, thanks.

This is the last thing you see from me here. (Unless you know a hacker. I’m interested.)

You can still find me everywhere else, well, you all know where.. :) Twitter (only fanarts): elie0202; Instagram (less and less fanarts): gaborovna. Ever in doubt just google Gaborovna, I’m one of the 6 or so people who lives with this name in the world and one of them is my sister, so you will be able to find me, I’m not worried.
I allow for everyone to share my fanarts with credit and without edits, so if you happen to find my fanart somewhere and would like to share it on your Tumblr blog, by any means, please go ahead.

I’m quite sad this is happening because I started on Tumblr, though I haven’t been active for like a year now, Tumblr is still precious for me, I loved replying to any questions you might have had, and I loved that could share it out public for others to see too, who might have been struggling with the same problem. Of course you can still always send me an email (erika@gaborovna.com) or contact me anywhere else, but I’m sad those can’t be shared with everyone to benefit from it. It’s been a great and beautiful time here, so it feels heavy to close it. I won’t delete the blog(s) because I can’t.

I would like to tell though that I’m closing the fanart commissions, not the tattoo ones (which is more like a design commission anyway). But I can’t change this on the commission info (*slow clapping for Tumblr Team*).

That’s all. Take care, ladies, keep sparkling!

… Aaand let me know if you know someone who might be able to hack into my account, maybe the hotmail system as well, because that would be one way to solve it. I might actually pay for a hacker to do it, if you know someone.

Anonymous asked:
About 2-3 years ago, you became my first inspiration for my art. And thus far, you've helped so much. At times, I'd visit your blog and indulge on your updates; and in those moments, I almost forget that you're a real living person. Perhaps I'm only seeing a part of your life online, but I enjoy basking in that sort of daydream. I just really want to thank you so much. Because besides that daydream, your contribution to the foundation of my works that you may not be aware of is undoubtedly real.

Thank you for sending such a nice message. I’m happy you found something in my drawings that not just touched you, but bloomed into something more and precious thanks to you. Keep drawing, dear. 😊

Anonymous asked:
Hi *-* Already have a time since you have not posted a new video on youtube !!!I hope you have news for the year 2017 and that there are many fanarts. Happy New Year and I wish you all the best for you and your family. May God bless you. :D :) ♥

Hi, ah, yes, don’t even mention my Youtube.. 😓 Gotta change this next year. I wish you an awesome year too, have a great one! 😘🍾

Anonymous asked:
How is it that you get some of the areas of emphasis much, much darker than the rest? Do you use ink by chance?

I don’t use ink lately, I did use it on my older fanarts the ones 2-3 yrs ago. Now I just use pencils, mostly H-s and adding a little B-s. And a lot of layers. : )

Anonymous asked:
hello! i took a gander at some of the fanart you've posted on this blog and i might be interested in buying a print/copy for me to hang on my wall/give as a gift. i took a look around your blog but all i found was information for commissions. is some of the work you've already completed up for sale?

Yes, they are on society.com/gaborovna

A lot of the new ones are not up there though, let me know if the one you like is not available, and I will look into it.

Hey, Merry Christmas! It’s almost here, so exciting. 😃

Anonymous asked:
hope you're doing well ^^ i saw your instagram post (your hair got SO LONG <333) and i realized i haven't been on tumblr in awhile @-@ (currently figuring out college and drowning in finals ahahhaah, i'm alright i'm still alive -w-) anyways just wanted to say thank you for sharing your work :) it makes me really happy to know that you are still pursing what you love

Thank you ^^ Haha, yes, my hair got so long already, I enjoy it quite much, haven’t been this long for 10 years! :D I was saving on haircut for over a year now… ^^’ I’m going to visit my hairstylist in January, he probably will cut a lot of it, you can imagine how my ends look like right now *sigh

Good luck with your finals, you can do it. Eat bananas. I remember we learnt in biology once that bananas help short term memory, so it’s useful to eat them before exams. :D

I don't know when you'll get this, haha. But I've been suffering from Artist Block for almost a year and a half now and I feel totally lost with our art. I force myself to draw but I'm never happy with. It feels like a chore now. ㅠㅠ Plz, Help.

Oh, wow, that’s one stubborn Art Block. : )

I’m not sure what to suggest, I suspect you probably tried a lot of things already to overcome it. … (As you probably know - ) I’m a designer, working in design every day from morning to evening, and sometimes after work, and on the weekends too, depends on how much side projects I have going on beside my daytime job. I can’t afford going into any kind of block. So during these years I did manage to kind of figure out how to get out of it when it hits (or when I can’t overcome it, then how to cheat in creativty..) But those are working for me, for my body, so I’m not sure if they are suitable for you.

In general I know that it hits me when I feel down, and usually paired with afraid - I’m a pretty stressed out paranoid kind of person, so I can be afraid on a basetone from things you would just pass by without noticing, and it numbs me. So now I know that I should stay in a calm environment in order to stay creative, in an environment I can trust, I won’t be jumping to every sound coming from outside the house, won’t be on high alert every hour every day, I won’t have a headache over how I’m going to pay off my rent. When you mind goes around fear it can’t build and create - hence my decision to move to New Zealand, but it comes out on a much smaller level too, like the correct workplace, a positive workplace. I also know that I have to live alone, I need a huge amount of alone time in order to create. So since I know all these already I  intentionally look for an environment that minimizes down the worries, negativity, and reduces the chances of hitting a block. The starving artist concept is a lie, you can’t share yourself when you don’t feel full. Or you can, but you can only share your problems, and everyone have those their own, so no one really cares about yours honestly. So aim to feel full, satisfied, and all bubbly-nice with a hint of “the world is such a beautiful place”.
Then, another thing I noticed when my creativity happens to bloom is a feeling of being sliiightly in love. Kind of in love. .. Ah, this part is difficult to explain. Have you been in love? The kind when air escapes your lungs you have to remember to breathe, it numbs all your body parts, you suddenly feel every nerve in your body open up so much they almost burst into fireworks every single one of them and you experience an entirely other world, not the one you have known when he wasn’t around, and time stops around you and you are just lost, entirely lost? … So that’s not the kind of love I’m talking about. That’s a highly stressful feeling, that’s not what we need here. The love we are aiming for is the really soft and warm one, a comfy one. Like what you feel towards your pet, your love towards your pet is unconditional, it’s strong, but it’s not stressful, it spreads in you as a comfortable good feeling, it’s a good love. Similar is when you look at your favourite idol, you look at him smile and you just smile with him. Or I feel this when I see something beautiful too, like a beautiful scenery, or Christmas songs, or watching one of those feel-good movies, or sunny Saturday mornings. This soft love is the best base for me to get inspired. Whenever I need an idea for a project, I would keep that project in the back of my mind always, and when I step into this emotion I concentrate on it a little more and usually get inspired. And since I know my body already I know what will make me feel like this, with a little effort I can reach it. When I need inspiration I would do these things, or delay the project until I feel it. But you have to catch it or it might pass without any inspiration.
For me emotions are pretty important, because I work from them. I don’t work from brain or reasons, not counting pixels, or using guides and rulers for designs, I work with “does it feel right or not?” And if my emotions are not the right ones, I won’t feel it correctly or not at all, and then I have no idea what’s going on or where they should be.
Another thing, which I already mentioned, is to keep what you need in the back of your mind always. Like when you want to draw a fanart of a person, keep this intention in the back of your mind, and wait for it to grow itself. It might take weeks. While you are living your daily life, and you might see something that sticks to your idea, or you might hear a phrase that will be an enlightement moment and your fanart suddenly will show itself to you. It’s like “my body is ready” kind of way when you are keeping this intention in the back of your mind, and slowly seducing inspiration to come to you. 
Which makes me remember the book Big Magic, which you should read. I advertise this book so much gosh, I didn’t plan to pick as my favourite in 2016, but maybe I should, I don’t advertise any of the other books I have read this year as much as this. :D It’s about the nature of inspiration, a personal view on it. Good one, good one.
And finally, you have to train your head to stay creative. For which I find challenges, themes, topics really helpful. Keeping yourself in borders with a topic, but let your mind play with it and create a series on the same topic. E.g. make 3 Christmas drawings. Or be seasonal, like draw 5 winter illustrations. Or January ones. Or make 3 versions for the number 2017 (for which 99designs have a competition on Instagram now, I saw it yesterday :D ). If you can’t come up with these for yourself find competitions online. Train your brain to come up with ideas.

For me these work, of course this is personal, so I don’t know about you. Occasionally the block might be too strong nothing of these work, then I just leave it be and let it pass, and live on experience all the while. But these strong ones don’t take long for me, just a few days top. I might not be drawing for a long time, because I don’t have inspiration to draw, but in the same time I might be highly productive in design. I also get tired from a certain tool sometimes, and then I would feel like doing something else, like knitting, or embroidery, or sew. Variety is wonderful. : )
I rarely have a full stop of block. And in those times I usually feel just highly stressed out for other reasons, so I can’t sit down and create, I just can’t bring my mind around anything. In those times my aim is to bring myself out of the emotional pit back to zero at least.

Anonymous asked:
Hi! I absolutely adore your fanart. I was wondering where you get your paper? I know it's light grain from Canson, but I cannot seem to find anywhere that type of paper ^^;; Thank you~

Now I’m using Canson Cartridge (now means in the past year). The light grain was a different one, though it is slightly grained too, but that was more grained. Anyway, it’s not a smooth paper, you can find other levels of smooth papers. I think that was also 130g, while Cartridge is 110. In general I prefer thicker ones, for those times when I go temparily crazy and use watercolour. In the same time not too thick, because I overtrace the fanarts and something thick (like watercolour paper) would make my life harder, and my drawing process longer, which I don’t want. I like papers which are suitable for anything I might bring over it. This Canson 110g can take water too, to a really small extent, so don’t soak it in water, but you can use a little with it. It’s great for pencil. For Prismacolor I would suggest to try something smoother, I’m not quite satisfied with the texture it leaves behind, but I’m not so experienced with Prismacolor and 50% of the problem might be my technique.

Anonymous asked:
alcohol is not a substitute for water. :(

That’s sad. 😢

Anonymous asked:
Are you in NZ?? Are you okay from that earthquake??!? xx

Yeap, I live here now (”now” 🙄 so over a year.. 😅 )

It wasn’t that big here, I mean I felt it, I wasn’t sleeping yet, and at first it was nothing out of usual, we have small earthquakes, and I got tolerance trained about earthquakes in Taiwan, so it’s hard to get me stressed about these. But then it got stronger and kept getting stronger, I even got up from the bed, grabbed my phone and went to the door to jump out if it gets even worse, the house was really squeeking above me, I live on the first floor. It’s not the earthquake I was scared of, I don’t trust this house!

The centre was on the north part of the south island, I live in the middle of the north island (the hobbits are in the neighbour), and since we are close to volcanoes here, and we often have earthquakes people were keeping it cool slightly confused if it’s time to panic or not yet. They say we might have another big one soon, not much chance, but won’t be out of usual, I heard people are in the supermarket buying up water. Well, I have two bottles of wine and two cartons of beer, so I guess I’m going to be alright. 😂
… I have a terrible deadline to meet on Friday, I don’t have time for these earthquakes and drama.  😐

Thank you for your concern though. I received so many nice messages today from so many people. I feel cared. ☺️

Get to know me

Nickname: Eri, but only for family members, otherwise people don’t call me by nicknames

Gender: Female

Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

Height: 170cm

Hogwarts House: I feel Ravenclaw, but the test said Gryffindor, and now I’m having identity issues 😔

Favourite Colour: grey, french grey

Time Right Now: 1:44pm (lunchtiiime)

Average Hours of Sleep: 6

Lucky Number: 2

Last Thing I Googled: earthquake nz (last night, right after I felt it, wanted to  know how strong it was and where it came from)

Blankets I Sleep With: one folded into double + a hot bottle (can you tell I’m a frozen little soul, haha)

Favourite Bands: EXO 

Favourite Kpop Bands: EXO

Solo Artist: This year I really liked to listen to Emma Louise (her latest album) 🤔

Age of Blog: 4.5 yrs old (had to check it but I wanted to know too)(felt more though)

Following: 1,132

Posts: 6,618

What I post About: used to be kpop and whatever, but now just replies, once a month a drawing, and once in 2 years a tag 😏

When Did My Blog Reach Its Peak: when I was active 😁

URL: http://kpope11ie.tumblr.com/

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